Having brain cancer has had a wonderful way of changing my perspective on just about everything, including turning 50 today. When I turned 30 I was sad to be getting older. Today, I have no wish to be young again. I harbor little nostalgia for years gone by. I have only immense gratitude for this day, for the privilege of turning 50, for being alive. I am very, very happy to be 50. Bring it on, y’all!
I have not posted for almost two months now. I keep thinking I am just a few days away from feeling “normal,” and I delay posting until then. But normal never seems to quite get here. Sigh. Star Trek The Star Trek convention in New York City really did wear me out. I came home utterly drained and with another infection, but very grateful and happy that I’d had enough energy to complete the trip and participate in it pretty well. It was fun and absolutely worth the effort. But it took me a round of antibiotics and a couple of weeks […]
I want to tell you a little bit about my approach to having a brain tumor – the metaphor through which I am viewing my experience. Many people interpret cancer as a fight – a battle. I am choosing a different way to think about it. My view is that it’s a journey towards wholeness. I see my brain tumor as a part of me that needs to be healed. I have begun thinking of myself as a universe in which trillions of cells live. These cells are a “we” that collectively make up “me” – Fran. We (all these cells […]